100th post...
but nothing to celebrate over

been very unlucky lately

today PYK announced
want to check biji tmr
just nice
i lost it
trouble TT

today was assessment for comp team
AC FAILED badly
only TOC just pass
but i strained my back
hit it against stuff 3 times
metal gate, whiteboard, bench
ouch

seriously
since we fail so badly
i rather not go to the competition
go there
if dont get top 3
be wasting my time, effort
everyone's time and effort
not only that
throw our school name
so what riverside not sending AC
still got many other good corps
like
bukit merah sec
woodlands ring sec

we are seriously so weak
i have had enough
seriously
man
dont send us
if i had a choice
i wont
im not confident of winning
we, BP Corp
go there to win
if we are not confident
sending us there
is sucidal
for our Corp

our first aid practical is bad
CPR either no strength
or no accuracy
so what if im the BANDAGER

TOC
yeah so we passed today
but
28/50 aint a good pass
besides
all of us
no strength
no stamina
how to survive?!

Footdrill
amirul still unsure of the drills
timing still out
amirul cant coordinate arm swing
like that how can?!

so
please dont send us
only 2 or 3 weeks to the competition

BTW menghan
this is life in comp team
the HIGHS and LOWS in it are extreme
it is very stressful
train an at least two additional days per week
any mistake in front of the corp
is = 50 pumpin per mistake
very high expectations
a higher chance of injury
if dont meet expectations
u can never hold your head that high
while still in SJ
or even in school
after all
u would have failed your instructors
your friends
your teammates
the corp
its a heavy responsibility
its not easy man

thats what i feel
what i think
what it is





please try to ignore whatever i said
this is so unlike me